joy of a wee one

With a new member of my extended family arriving this week, and it has highlighted that the thought of being a childless couple is just over whelming. As I cuddle this wee baby and then watch my sister with him I am so very thankful that we have this wee boy in our lives.

I have been reading the blog of a lady that who has struggled to have a second child. She has written about her grief, that their journey has ended. I completely understand the bone weary sadness that she feels.

This past week as been one of watching temperatures in hopes that there might be a spike and there might be a flash of a hope that we can still have our own. Also talking to a friend who is also going through the infertility struggle, she pointed out that she too was getting a temperate increase but no eggs were being released. So as I watch my temperature each morning, I fear i am watching our hopes slip away. My friend is fit, active, at the right BMI and younger than me, and still her ovaries don't work, so what hope do I have.

At least with adoption & 'home for life' there is always HOPE while our names remind on the list.
We start our classes in the next two weeks. Will try to look on the bright side and enjoy the blessing of a nephew.

My temperature has now spiked and I rushed in to get a second blood test on Friday. We now sit back and wait for the results to give us the all important answer of am I ovulating.